I am constantly amazed at how the omnipotent, ultimate Creator, God of the universe works ALL of the things out. The way He beautifully, intrinsically, and intentionally weaves not only our individual lives together, but also weaves those life braids together to form this magnificent masterpiece of community is just beyond comprehension. I love my tribe and my community that God has woven for me. I love the people. I love loving on people, and I tend to hoard people and friendships. I believe in the mantra that people come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime, but let's be real, I usually struggle to let go of seasonal friends. I should just have a tattoo that says LIFER on it because come hell or highwater, I can love the stuffing out of you. Yet as a healing work in progress, God in his goodness and faithfulness, looks down on my life and still decides to add new threads of friends to my journey in the most unexpected turns of my story. I look back on the last two years, especially, and the last 12 years of cancer and even the last 15 years, and I see some amazing people that have shown up in my life. God wants us to be fully reliant on Him, but what a wonder it is when he chooses us, as fallible people, to do His work and to bring life, love, hope and joy to those around us. It is a privilege, I know I take for granted far too often. Looking back, I can see how he brought people in to help fill a need I did not know I even had, or to heal a wound I had long since forgotten. I can see the times when it felt like all hope was lost, and someone stepped up and spoke words of life and truth into my battered soul overwhelming me with joy. I can see people, just in pure obedience, come and set an elaborate table before me that was completely undeserved, making my heart a pure puddle. Even now in my chaotic survival mode, He is weaving in some beautiful new threads that are already starting to form unique shapes into my story that just overfill my cup. For that, I am truly humbled and grateful.
As this tapestry continues to unfold, this new month has brought forth a new season. This season is being built on shaky confidence, forged in fire faith, eager expectation, and the encouragement of my tribe. It is my prayer that this season takes my healing in a new direction of not just surviving but thriving. It is the taking of my talents and working them to multiply my own joy and to bring more life and joy to the ones I love. This season is about learning to better tune out the lies that are constantly being thrown at me and turning up the truth of who I am and whose I am. This is the season where I finally stop waiting for "the day" and start showing up for myself, my own hard heart work. This is the start of a lot....
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