Thoughts for the Moment

I just recently discovered an amazing new group called Red Roots. A Christian and country group rolled into one. I heard this song this morning that tugged at my heart. It's called
 "When God Says No"
One year ago today, she got the call
That stopped her life
And ever since that moment,
He prayed God would heal his wife
She got weaker by the minute
In that hospital bed
And she could see that he was mad at
God, so she took his hand and said

What if God says no
It don’t mean He loves us less
It just means He knows what’s best
What if God says no
It’s enough we have His grace
So don’t let go of your faith
What if God says no

Just south of Atlanta,
It’s been slow out on his job
But now he’s lovin on his family
And has time to talk to God
He’s prayin that a miracle
Will turn his business back around
But what if God gives him the answer
That His grace is good for now

Jesus prayed on the last night
Before He was crucified
And said, "Dad if there’s another way,
Could you let this pass me by?"
But God saw the big picture,
That it had to be done
So as much as it hurt,
He couldn’t say yes to His Son

In 2 Corinthians 12:9  Paul writes

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

I feel like lately in the crazy chaos of these times I keep forgetting this simple truth. Sometimes reading facebook or catching up with some people, I struggle with grief and loss all over again. My life has in NO WAY gone anything like I have planned, nor do I understand the reasons behind it. I see all these amazing things happening to so many people and I am truly happy for them. Yet, being human and an enemy of Satan, I am reminded of the things that didn't go like I had thought that they should. I grieve again for the time I lost being sick and for the lingering side effects of chemo and for the problem of infertility and for the fears that cancer has embedded into my psyche. It is all so overwhelming until I go back to what I know. I remember that His grace IS enough. Even though I can't see the bigger picture, I know that I dont have to. Where my strength and knowledge ends, there is where His continues.
I don't blame God for what happened, and I dont know why behind it. I do know that I am more than blessed for what I do have- the best family and friends and a crazy interesting eclectic life:). I also have the greatest blessing of all...